Right now I’m at the park with my son. Watching him play is making me think about my life.
I am constantly struggling with what my idea life would be like, what my life goals are, and how I would like to spend my days.
I created this checklist for myself and figure it is something we can all learn from.
Lately I have been posting a lot about my personal struggles with finding figuring out who I am. The last article being a week ago on what I want to do with my life. I have been continuing to mull this idea over and I feel like I don’t have an answer, but I am closer. This being said, I feel this means I need to rethink the purpose and goals of this blog.
I would like to make money from this blog. It isn’t that I want to rip anyone off or get rich off of my readers. I would just like to make enough money that I could cover my modest expenses and focus my full attention on my art projects (including this blog). There is no problem or moral objection to this frame of mind, but I feel it has been forcing me to write a specific type of article.
Having followed Internet Business Blogs/podcasts for a few years now I see the potential for making money online, but my obsessive compulsive tendencies have forced me to seek out everything I can find and devour too much content.
From this, I subconsciously want to have an internet marketing blog like the ones that I personally
Not sure if this is the kind of stuff people want to read, but I know I am always interested in hearing others have the same problems as me and learning how they over come them. I hope that by writing articles like this and continuing to create the Madman of Magic Comic Book I will find an answer for myself. More importantly, I hope it helps those of you who are also struggling with making a decision of what to dedicate your life to.
To be honest, I think about my career constantly and have done this for a good chunk of my life. I recently looked through an old journal from Middle School and even then I wanted to be a Magician (which I am), biologist, chemist, in the military, stuntman, screen play writer, and others. These are all careers I mentioned wanting when I was in 7th grade.
Today I have a better idea of what I want to do with my life because of my experiences, but I still struggle with this question. In this article I hope to share with you my journey through this struggle.
Woody Allen was born in Brooklyn, NY in the December of 1935 as Allan Stewart Konigsberg. In his childhood he enjoyed magic, movies, and music. Mr. Allen got started writing comedy for his school newspaper while in High School but he wasn’t sure what he wanted to be in his adult career. He went to college, but he dropped out. With help of a relative, the young Allan started writing for radio and television.
At age 25, he began performing even though he had immense stage fright. He would practice at small clubs till he could get over being in front of larger and larger audiences. His first film was the 1965 classic “What’s New Pussycat?”. His first directing role was in 1966 for “What’s Up, Tiger Lily?”. From there he has been very active as a Writer, Director, and Actor often being all three in many of his movies.
Woody Allen’s success can be attributed to his insane work ethic. He is known for constantly practicing and perfecting his interests, often times locking himself away in his own apartment to work with little interaction with the outside world. This has been an advantage in that his movies are often un-influenced by other people’s work. Woody Allen tries to stay true to himself. Instead of making movies that he believes will be commercial success, he makes ones he would want to watch.
Looking over Woody Allen’s life we can see wild success, but it comes at a price. Neurosis, anxiety, and anti-social behavior is the curse this talented man must live with. It seems for Mr. Allen, being productive and prolific in the art form of film is his coping mechanism to life.
If you would like to see Woody Allen’s extensive filmography list click here.
Blog-o-sphere take note. I am restarting my energy towards web creation. I want to fix up my web presences and bring it all to a head that is interconnected.
Let’s focus on the presence. I am writing an article for my blog after several months of being absent. The truth is I am sitting at my computer with a cat around my neck thinking… ‘what is the point of this blog?’ Should I just erase all of it and think of the blog as a lesson learned? Maybe it can help me focus?
You may not believe this but I have a scattered view of the world. I don’t know what to do with myself or what I want to do as far as a career. I guess this problem comes from a variety of neuroses and an inability to focus on one project for more than a few days. My fits of ADD, OCD, anti-social behavior, etc., etc., etc. really threw off my life on a regular basis. At the age of twenty… Wait how old am I 28? 27? I am 28 going to be 29 in a few months. To make it a more suitable number, let’s say 30. I am a 30 year old currently in student loan prison and I can’t dig myself out. I need a bigger spoon.
These are the problems of my generation as I understand them. We want what we don’t have and the emptiness builds when we don’t get it. How do I cope with that? I am supposed to be tough, strong, and all knowing. I watch those action movies, those are the representation of who I am expected to be. Instead I am a 30 year old dork.
I am totally screwed!
How do I find what I want to write about? What should I be writing about? I have been working today and just getting some small things done. I have been working on putting videos together for YouTube, did some dishes, and a little cleaning up of my office. I found a few bills that I did not know were past due and sent most of those people a check.
I am going to go back to working on life videos.
Here I am working at my day, well night job (3rd shift), and I finally figured out the way to go with my life. I know what you are thinking, “What is this guy talking about”. I don’t blame you because I only know half of what I am saying or in this case writing.
So, let’s start from the beginning. I was born in Racine County of Wisconsin, I currently live in Racine County of Wisconsin, and as things are going I will die in Racine County of Wisconsin (this would be sad only to me and maybe my wife and cat). To make a short story long,
